january twenty-first

It’s an amazing feeling when you finally know you’ve found your place in the world. I mean, I don’t think I’ve ever been “eager” to learn or “pay attention” until I started taking more and more English courses. Which is extremely ironic, considering English was always my most hated subject in middle and high school.

The only difference now is I am studying fiction. I LOVE fiction. To make good fiction though, you need to understand grammar and punctuation- all that jazz. All of the things I used to hate. Now, things are a bit different. Today while sitting in my beginning fiction workshop we were learning the proper ways to write dialogue. My undivided attention was brought into the classroom for the first time in ages. I don’t remember the last time I enjoyed learning so much that I was legitimately worried that I wouldn’t be able to remember the specific rules and guidelines. It was a good feeling.

In high school I always thought the absolute worst job in the world to pursue would be that of an English teacher, but now that it exactly what I am doing. It’s strange how once you find yourself you realize how wrong you can really be about yourself. Five years ago I never would have seen myself here. Five years ago I saw myself at UMN Duluth studying Psychology and planning to go on to become a Doctor of Clinical Psych… Haha, yeah, no way.  Now, I’d prefer the life of an English teacher.

Kids HATE English classes, I know that because I did too… But what if it could be made interesting? What if it didn’t have to be such a drag? That’s the hard part, I guess. Making such a necessary thing exciting.

I’m just rambling on now, so I think I’ll leave this post here.

Have a wonderful day, thanks for reading my meaningless blog once again!

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january thirteenth, twenty- fifteen

hello again all,

I don’t have a lot to talk about but I left my real journal at my mom’s house so instead of writing in there I guess this will have to do. Anyway, the new semester started yesterday; so far so good. I like my Fiction Workshop class a lot thus far, but my professor is a little on the crazy side. The best writers are the crazy ones, right? Guess we’ll see. I had to write a short description using an image (mental or real) for class and I really love how mine turned out. Even if I did use someone’s selfie on tumblr as inspiration it turned out very captivating and curious. It’s a good thing my professor loves crime fiction because my style is very much similar to crime- it just tends to have very dark undertones and often incorporates the paranormal.

Other than that, being back in my apartment is strange. It’s lonely, but calming. I guess being on your own living the hermit life can be a little sad. I miss my boyfriend more than anything though. I don’t know where I’d be without him- because even being away from him for a week at a time is like being lost.

I should get back to school work and then sleep. Boo. No fun, though luckily tomorrow is my “Friday” gotta love three day weeks and having 3 online classes. (I only have to go to campus for one class and work. It’s great.)

Have a wonderful night my little Imps.

Goodnight
X.

twenty-fifteen

Every year I always say I’m going to start keeping up with my blog, but let’s be honest here… That NEVER happens. Also, it’s not likely to happen this year. But I just run out of things to talk about, to rant about, to vent about… So anyway, I will try and keep you in the loop a little more. I really do need to admit to myself that I NEED an outlet other than my personal journal and my tumblr page.  So why not here?

I just wanna name off a few of the things I want to work on this year, I wouldn’t want to label them as resolutions because that sounds like a joke. I want to call them goals. I have a few of them this year. The biggest is to stay motivated. I mean, better late than never, right?  Hold up, I’m just gonna make a good old fashioned list.

  • stay motivated
  • stay organized a little more (stop losing things)
  • STAY toned and fit (and maybe tan too…)
  • finish a Novella or even a Novel (unrevised is okay with me.)
  • start putting money in my savings account
  • get my GPA back to a 3.0 (or higher is always good too)
  • live more for myself while still being there for others
  • do one nice thing for myself everyday ^ (same thing as above kinda)
  • STAY MOTIVATED

I guess to put things into one little summation… 2015 is the year I want to start living my life the way I want to. I don’t want to stress out and freak out anymore. I don’t want to fall into spouts of depression and angst anymore. I am twenty-one years old and it’s time I grow up and act like it. I mean people say I act mature for my age, and I do believe that, but I am not living up to my standards. I push myself and strive for things harder than most people… All that stands in my way is motivation. So if you can’t tell, motivation is my strongest goal and thing to work on.

It’s easy to say I’m going to work on all of these things, but acting on them is a whole other story.
Wish me luck, I may need it.

Happy new year to you all!
X.