How far have I come?

To those who don’t know me, I may seem lazy, slow, or unmotivated. Somedays, maybe that is true. We all have those days. I will also admit, I know I do not work to my complete potential, but that’s because I know my limits. If I work as hard as  I know I can, I know I will burn out. That’s not fair to me or those around me.

This year has been hard for me; seeing many other people I graduated high school with now graduating college. I am still here, with a year of undergrad left. I have fallen behind, but not for lack of effort or lack of intelligence. I fell behind for lack of direction and lack of passion.

I should have graduated this year, and had I not changed majors three times, or transferred colleges late in my education- I would be graduating this spring. Looking back on this last semester especially, I have noticed that I am exactly where I am meant to be. I am finally in the major I love, working in a job I enjoy, and am moving ahead to the path I want to be on.

So, even if I am graduating a year behind schedule, at least I can be confident in what I am doing. As an English major, I have received more support, praise, and encouragement from my professors, my peers, and the people in my personal life than I ever have before. My grades are better than they have been since high school. I am happier, as a person, in general. But Ultimately, I feel like I am finally where I belong, so no, I do not regret being “behind” a year. If anything, I am grateful for it.

We all stumble at times, but what matters is how we pick ourselves back up and who helps us along the way.

 

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Wednesday Words of Wisdom – 05.04.2016

Been a while since I last posted one of these. So, forgive me if I’m a little rusty.

Today’s topic: Growing Up/Changes

Sometimes life with throw you a lot of big  changes in a short amount of time. Maybe you’re graduating or starting a new job, in the mean time maybe there are other things going on too- moving, paying off debt, trying to keep up with your friends and family, etc. When all of these things piles up, it’s easy to get overwhelmed and start to question yourself and what you want from life. Finding a balance is a good thing, even if it might be a challenge.

That’s where you need to stop worrying and realize that, more often than not, what you want has been there all along. Just because one thing in your life changes, it doesn’t mean that everything has to change. Remember things you enjoyed doing before everything went crazy, remember the people you care about and who care about you. Take time to yourself so that you can relax and not stress about things. Ask the people around you for some space, even if they want to smother you, if they really care about you they will understand.

It is hard to juggle multiple things at once, and it takes practice. But, if you’re on the right track, you’ll gain speed and become better and better as time goes on. Everyone has their rough patches, but what matters is being able to come out of them. If you can’t pull yourself out, look to the people around you, maybe they can offer you some better footing.

Most importantly, don’t forget how you got to where you are. There were troubles, there were hard times. But, you made it. You’re here. Did anyone help you along the way? Thank them. Did you achieve something you never thought possible? Be proud. All in all, never forget the people who are there to support you and don’t forget your self-worth.

We are all much better than we give ourselves credit for, and I know from my own experiences that it’s easy to overthink when things pile up. So just breathe, slow down, and appreciate everything around you. Don’t question whether you deserve to have good things in your life, and don’t worry about them disappearing. Just trust that everything is okay and be happy to be where you are. We are all blessed, and sometimes we forget that, but in the end everything will be exactly the way it is meant to be.

Have a great day.

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